2012-2013 Online Edition - POETRY

Blue Blanket

By Emily Fulcher


The scent of campfire was cold on the wind.

He took a step back from me, the distance speaking memories

that we hadn’t yet discovered. Like his blue picnic blanket

against the wildfire autumn leaves as my hair, brown

and sprawling, tangled between his fingers.

I was always so sure he never would, now he is: changed.

 

His olive eyes rested hard on me, my face changed

and I focused in on the transparency of my skin against the wind.

I pulled my sweater over scarred arms with fingers

stinging from the same ache that the memories

of his hand in mine, left all over my brown-

stained and  bruised heart. I had tried to blanket

 

his own heart by keeping my shadows inside: a blanket

against the storm, but by the time I realized my mistake, everything had changed.

Silence echoed on for eon seconds as the brown

stubble on his cheeks was rubbed raw red by the somber wind,

nudging, as if to tell him it could carry away the memories,

taking them from his hands if he would just let open his fingers

 

His hesitation was tangible. If he reached out his fingers

and linked them into mine, I would lose the blanket.

I took a step back from him. The action speaking memories

real to our history that could never be changed-

An afternoon chasing the summer wind

across a beach of fallen and dead brown

 

pine needles in a once green forest, dried up brown.

That warm day he had woven his fingers

through mine, an attempt at love as the teasing wind

caressed our skin. We had fallen in love on that blue blanket

and then back out of love as the seasons changed.

As the frost came blowing in, I wrapped up the memories,

 

Labeled them and laid them away. I tried not to think of those memories

as I stood there, my pride at my feet covered in brown

mud, a salty puddle of my own making. We had both changed

that summer afternoon when, together, we’d given in to fingers

roaming across bare skin. A stain on that blue blanket,

and doubts gnawing inside of me. The wind

 

never felt the same again. Memories of his soft fingers

and the brown hues of the trees, laying on my back on the blanket-

I was changed into a lover of only the wind.